AAAhh!!! Real Monsters

Dear God, I'm trying hard to reach you. Dear God, I see your face in all I do. Sometimes, it's so hard to believe it...But God, I know you have your reasons.


I put this entry off for the past two days. No reason, I just didn't feel like blogging.  I tried my best to blog everyday, but now I go to the point where it shouldn't have to be an entry everyday. When the time's right.  AAAHH!!!

So many choices and decisions I must make but I have no way of going about it each one.  I guess I'm waiting on some divine intervention to make the decisions for me, because as we all know, each decision has a consequence.

It's interesting how I find the intro to this blog very relevant to this entry because I got it from a song I had just heard, and I put it there two days ago. Now I listen to the song over and over and now I'm like wow....

I had so  much fun on camfrog the other night with my fellas! I was in tears laughing! Wee got kicked out of the room. We are coming back for REVENGE! Either tonight or tomorrow, but this time we won't get kicked out I hope. Lol

There could possibly be another blog tonight, not sure of it yet...



Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Back Porch Remedies

Be careful how you touch her, she'll awaken. As sleep's the only freedom that she knoes.  And when you walk into her eyes, you won't believe. The way she always paying, for a debt she never owes. And a silent wind still blows. That only she can hear, so she goes.

Hmmmmm..............It feels like I'm leaving you(the reader) on the edge of what I'm about to say!

Honestly, I'm in the same situation as you are!

Ok so I'm on summer vacation, but I still need a vacation! I'm working on trying to go back to Mobile for a weekend with my friends. Maybe hit the beach this time. I just want to get away from the city. I'm tired of living in rush. It seems like everywhere I go, I have to hurry to get there and I'm drained after I'm done. I would love to drive to a place where I can go the speed limit or a little bit less than that. So I can look out at the city with more observation.

My car is my back porch where I'm sitting................


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Paris, Tokyo

Sometimes play the villain, sometimes play the hero. Sometimes I be Dilla, Sometimes I be Primo. Sometime I be feeling, I got a big ego. Other times I gotta swim around like Nemo.....




I had a wonderful birthday! I got to spend some time with my friends and enjoy their company! :) I got one of the best biirthday presents ever! My friend sang Happy Birthday to me! It was pretty awesome!! It made my day! :D  Life feels so good right now! I don't want this feeling to stop! I feel like I haven't done much, but so much has happened while I sit. I'm viewing the world through my dreams.


From my last few posts about the graduation tragedy, I heard and seen even more disturbing news.... Apparently, the kid's picture has been circulating around lately. HIS DEAD BODY!!!! Like are you serious people???? That is not cool at all...I just hope it doesn't get to me, but it's sad that people would actually take a picture of him and then send it...In the back of my mind, I had a feeling that this would happen...I can't say I'm surprised that it didn't happen......


I have a pretty busy weekend ahead of me! Time to get back to work? Who knows what tomorrow brings? I may be the CEO by then! Right?


As I right this, the song Beach Chair by Jay-Z just ran through my head when he said Life is but a Beach Chair......totally random but that's how I feel at this moment....I'm in my Beach Chair....Let the Sunshine In











Love, Live, Life


:::Byron Belle:::

Too Decades

Today, nobody care. But tomorrow. They will.....They said my future was dark....You see me now? Just look around. I'm beaming!


So the time has finally come....I'm 20 why oh! lol...I'm really glad I made it this far in life....times were hard...but when will it not be? I've overcome so much in 20 years of my life...stayed who I was but grew in return....I'm sure whatever God has in store for me in the future, it will be for the better...I can't believe I don't have a beard or a mustache yet!!! :(

I was pretty sure by the time I was 17 I would start growing something!!! I'm still working on my Mr. T facial!! It's coming! I hope lol....But I'm just glad to see another year!!

Who know what's next for me??


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Born to Win

You see the tears of fire, run out my cryin' songs. Now the world's shoulders, is what I'm cryin' on. The world's fast lanes, is what I'm drivin' on. What am I driving at? I'm trying to drive it home. I'm in the driver's seat, but you can ride along......


Feelin really good right now after listening to that song! Have you ever listened to a song and the more you listen to it, the more you understand or hear? It's almost like having a light-bulb moment at that second!!  Don't know what to expect from today, but I'm just counting down the hours until my birthday!!!!

I still can't get over that graduation shooting this weekend....click HERE to view the story....My prayers go out to all of those who were affected by the tragic incident.....

I'm feeling like the top underdog lol...thinking about the movie REVENGE OF THE NERDS!!! I can relate to them a lot...funny movie but it happens....or at least it did....I don't know what to make of society now.....one minute, the world is preppy...then rockstars.....then nerds?????  That's why I ain't changing for no one! I know who I am...........





Love,Live,Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Anger Management Theraputical Snacks

I  may be just a foolish dreamer, but I don't care. Cause I know my happiness is waiting out there somewhere.  I'm searching for that silver lining. Horizons that I've never seen....

Where to start......how to start.......what to start.......I'm very appalled at what happened this weekend....8 people were shot and 1 was killed at a graduation party. That's why I don't attend parties anymore forreal because of the fact every party I went to, post graduation, someone get to fighting and the party gets shut down.....but the fact that at this party, kids were shot is just ridiculous....Is it even worth it??

I'm pretty sure that incident will be in my head for a pretty long time.....SMH we gotta get it together people like seriously....

Now, my birthday is in less than 24 hours now! I can't believe it's about to be here!!! 2 decades alive! (hmmm 2 decades sound like the name of my next post!) 

I wish I could camfrog with one of the coolest girls I know! Güli! But camfrog is making me go into eating my Anger Management Therapeutical Snacks....OREOS with milk! YUM!!!! Message to Güli can't wait to hear you sing Happy Birthday! ;)

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Closer

I take a look at where I'm at, where I'm at. I close my eyes I see space, go there and back......


I really need to get out of this country!!!!!!! but how hmmmmm.......

It's not that I don't love it here, I'm dying to see more of the world! I just know that there many places out there that are way more beautiful than what we see on tv or hear from other people. And no I'm not talking about Paris or Italy or popular countries like that. I'm talking about Czechoslovakia, Indonesia, places like that! Maybe next year I can go somewhere.....we'll see!

I haven't been faithful to my sketchbook lately. It seems as if, as soon as my day starts, I have to run all over town and when it comes time for me, I get side-tracked by hanging out with my friends all night or on facebook. Facebook is very addicting! I need to break this addiction! ASAP! I'm on facebook right now lol.  But since I'm stuck at home for the night, I will draw in it and watch some Kung fu movies I haven't watched yet. I also will read some more on Tao te Ching. Very interesting book needless to say......

When I used to blog, I kind of had a theme that went along with it, for instance, I would blog about what the title was and added a concept to it by trying to relate to my everyday life...

Now, I can't do that anymore because so much goes on in my head to the point I don't know what the title should be or what I should write about....from now on, my blogs will be irrelevant but relevant. lol I may end a blog without closing it......like this......




Love,Live,Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Camfroggin

For just one whole day, I would like to stay at the house and do what I want to do.  As soon as I wake up, I have to do something for either my mother or my father and then I'm busy the whole day.  I wanted to wash my car yesterday but I couldn't get around to it. So hopefully today I can, my car is pretty dirty!!!!!



I actually created me a camfrog account while I was in school, but didn't do anything with it because I didn't know what I was really doing....Now it's the only way I can see my buddy Philly because she's no longer in town for us to hang out..... :( come back PHILLLLYYYY!!!!!!!!!! but anyways lol, after I finished chatting with her, I did some more exploring and found a whole different world out there!!! People from all over the world are camfroggin! It's much better than skype because with skype, you have to know someone to video chat with them and that's cool and all but when you want to meet other people, CAMFROG is where its at!!!!

7 days

Sooooooooooooooooooo..............



Time is winding down!!!! I can't believe I'm about to be 20 in 7 days!!! Hmmmmm..........I want to go back to Mobile with my friends! That weekend was pretty awesome for us! Had a ton of fun

....Sometimes I wish I still was a kid, because I'm getting to the age where I have to learn how to do things on my own. Sadly, I still haven't grown any facial hair yet. I just knew that by the time I turned 18, my beard would be bigger than Mr. T's!


I went to Papa Johns today, to fill out an application. Hopefully I get the job, I really need to get some money.  I want to save up and spend lol..I guess tomorrow or today, I'll do some more job hunting. The last place I will go will be McDonalds....As much as I like McDonalds, I can't work there.....AT ALL......


I guess I'll read some more of "The Way" by Lao Tzu..after I finish reading this book, I want to learn what confucious was speaking about....Maybe I can use what I learn from these two Chinese Philosophers to help me in Architecture and helping others.


Life is peaceful right now, no worries just having fun with the homies! Let the Good times roll!!!


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Summertime

It's been months since I last blogged. My last blog was on Myspace and it was pretty much ending the Bellenization Process. The Bellenization Process was me finding what I understand. Like I understood something, but didn't know what it was. I had a girlfriend so that kind of interfered with my life, plus my second year of college happened. I never thought it would be this hetic, but somehow I made it through another year!

The beginning of the year, I realized that I found what I was looking for in the Bellenization Process. I found that I was searching for God, a maturity in myself and becoming closer to God. So I'm glad that it's over because I really didn't know when the process would actually end.

I'm sooooo ecstatic that it's finally summertime because I can actually rest. I've been going to school NONSTOP since the 10th grade, and that includes summer school. So to actually be free from the world of education for 3 months is much needed for me. Personally, I'm just drained from school. Maybe this summer I can regain it all and become even 100 times better than I was before....

Currently, I'm studying a little Chinese Philosophy on my own because, I'm really interested in it and maybe I can learn something from it. I don't know what to expect from this summer, but I know this will be a laid-back summer for me....





Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::