End of the Voyage (Part 3 of 3)

Let me show you what life appears like when I appear in the light because Life is kinda like. A bright shade to accentuate a nice day. Positivity is the only right way.

I never thought in a million years that my words can have such an effect on person. On my previous blog L word or Stir of Echoes....I wrote something, kinda like a poem or a song....but when I wrote it....I wrote it thinking about love and life at the same time. I knew it was some powerful lyrics in it but it didn't dwell on me as much.....UNTIL.....My best friend Natalia read my blog and asked if she could borrow some of the words in it....I was like sure!

Sometimes things don't catch your attention the first couple of times...I read it and reread it and reread...then it hit me like WOW!!!! Those lyrics actually brought her to tears! Like the more I think about it, the more my eyes tear up. Also, I realized I'm a true artist...I draw, dance(step), sing (don't ask me to lol) and I play the drums at church.....my whole life has been surrounded by the arts and I enjoy doing all of them! It's destined that my life is in art...

But I feel like after realizing what's been going on in my life the Voyage has ended for me....Atlantis has been right in front me this whole....my heart...

I often ask myself, why did God make me the way I am? Why can't I be disrespectful to women or my parents? Or have some kind of anger in me when someone disrespects me? Why do I have a soft heart for women? Why do I understand them sometimes more than they do themselves? Why do I have the people in my life on my shoulders? Why is my motivation my friends and family? WHY? WHY? WHY?

Will I ever change for worse? I hope not....I want to be that guy who climbs that mountain for you. Whoever reads this blog....I want to be someone who is remembered by the world through my art....and through my art you will find my heart...............Atlantis............

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

From the Bellenization Process Files

Someone special brought this blog entry to my attention. I wrote this 8 November 2009.....after going back and reading it again.....I realized so much happened in my life it's a blessing to be where I'm at now...and for our feature presentation, I present to you..........The L Word

The L Word

My mind was like a time bomb waiting to explode,

of every single memory I didn't let go,

I put it into words so you can understand me.

when I look into the world and you see what I see.

Know the type of things I have to deal with.
I hear people saying that, people saying this.

Like it's easy to forgive than to forget.

Still holding on to whatever kind of grudge.

Could it be that being hurt gives a sudden rush?

Become so addicted its the closest thing to love

Beggin for more it's nothing less than drug,

keep askin the question why I can't get enough.

I'm so used to the fact my heart stays crushed

I wonder will I find the one that I can really trust

Or will it backfire on me turn into lust.

I gotta little faith, so I ain't giving up!
Wanting to be happy with my life is a must

I wanna fly high to the skies up above

to get away from the things that are just too much

these voices in my head saying listen to us

and do what we say if you want to be loved

There comes a time in everyone's life or I hope everyone, when it's time to grow up to become a man or woman.  Have a level of maturity and clarification  about what's next after you're tired of not having things go the way you always dreamed of.  

I remember at one point in my life, I just knew that I was a loser at everything I wanted to achieve in...When I had a girlfriend, I lost that...happy family with both parents, I lost that....keeping a home, I lost that...my mind, I lost that....

I felt like, I was important enough in this world to even be alive and maybe if I died then everything would be good....maybe it still would be......

The L word could mean whatever you want it to mean....LESBIAN, LIFE, LIVE, LOVE, LOSER, LAZY, etc....

The L word I'm talking about is LOVE....


LOL....I remember when I was talking to Courtney about Love one day, so much was coming out that I can't believe that what I was saying wasn't coming from my head....I think it went something like Love is perfect and she said that we as people don't know how to use it right or something like that...and I believe I was saying something about how love feels and stuff like that and at that moment I my heart was beating tremendously fast....like why is my heart doing this all of a sudden???

I Love to Love.....Love is perfect

I went home last week and Courtney said the L word...well first she had a surprise for me and I didn't have a single clue to what it may be.....she gave me hints but it wasn't coming together.....and she told She's in my arms forever....I LOVE YOU.....

Without hesitation, I said it back because I felt like I've told her a million times that I love her, but never did....and after I dropped her off at home, all I could think about was....Courtney said she love me!!!!!

I'm still thinking about that night, like WOW!!!! lol, just the thought of love and growing up and the future, and life in general....I feel like, Where am I going to go from here now?? I don't know

Who would've thought that what I wrote before I went to summer school would actually be so significant in my life when I was writing it for people who always lose at love

And I think I may have won!!

I love you so much Courtney that words can't express, my feelings

You take me high that I'm floating above the ceilings

I'm so ready for what God's has in store for us.

Making you and Shayla happy forever in me is a must.

The both of you make me the happiest guy in galaxy!

If you ever need anything just ask me!
Let's be the Love that people said never existed

Flying withouts wings, so baby lets get lifted!

Above the sky, past the stars, and into the land of forever.

The way I see things now, is YOU, SHAYLA, and I together!

Let's Make Love Last...


((FOREVER))


Byron Belle
::BMB+CCG::

Well I hope you enjoyed this presentation from "From the Bellenization Process Files" shouts out to my friend Lacii who is new to the blogging world! I'm here for you whenever you wanna talk! And much much much love to Güli who brought this blog to my attention :) Thank you!

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

From a Bunny to a Rabbit

Grow up! Be a man for once in my life. Once in my life. Once in my life. Grow up! And be a man for more than a night. More than a night. More than a night. Grow up! I got a lot of growing up to do. I can't wait to GROW UP! I got a lot of growing up to do!

Growing up....Your best friend becomes your worst enemies.
Lollipops turn into cigarettes.
The innocent ones turn into sluts.
Homework goes in the trash.
Detention becomes suspension.
Soda becomes alcohol.
Underwear becomes g-strings.
Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helment?
When the worst tthings you could get from girls or boys were the cooties?
Your worst enemies were your siblings?
Race issues were about who ran the fastest?
War was only a card game?
The only drug you knew was cough medicine?
Wearing a skirt didn't you a slut.
The only thing that hurt were skinned knees.
Goodbyes only meant see you tomorrow.......
and to think we all couldn't wait to grow up........

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Gone Fishin'

I don't know why we here, since we gotta be here. Life is but a beach chair. Went from having shabby clothes to crossing over Abbey Road. Hear my angels singing to me. I just hope I'm hearing right, karma's got me fearing like, Momma keep on praying for me. See, I got demons in my past, so I got daughter on the way. If the prophecy's correct, then the child shall have to pay. I hear my angels sing: Life is just a dream and they don't wanna wake up. Life is just a dream and they don't wanna leave.

After watching cartoons back in my day and seeing the sign GONE FISHIN' I always expected they would come back the same day. Apparently not, because I've been away for a few days......My first attempt at fishing was Thursday, and I didn't get any luck! Every time I looked away the fish would pop up out the water. I didn't see not one fish that day! Ok, but today I was determined to catch something! I had trouble throwing the bait in the water for about an hour and a half! lol.....Right when me and my friends were about to pack it up for the night. A fish grabbed the bait and I reeled that sucker in! THE END

So time is quickly approaching for me to leave for school yet once again for a long semester of sleepless nights. I'm no where near ready to leave, or better yet, I'm no where near prepared for this semester mentally. It probably won't hit me until school actually starts...I don't know if that's a good idea or a bad idea. I just wish my mind was set to expect the unexpected.....I may have to put my idea on hold for a few months but I won't forget about it at all, more like thinking about it and which direction I should go with it....Sometimes it gets frustrating because when I work on my idea, I get inspired by others that all of a sudden I feel like I need to start ALL OVER! I guess I'll go stand on the edge again and.........................


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Love Stuff

It gets cold standing outside your window, especially when I don't know your zip code. To put in the GPS, drive to you. I don't know where you at, but let me fly to you. Why do you, seem so elusive? Thoughts of you are like my dreams into music. Ever present, I have a heaven fetish God is the light, bring me to life. Evanescence. Be my immortal lover, wrapped in your mortal covers. Supernatural spirits human bodies loving more than others, love each other, lets be the love that they say I'd never get, they expect me to bug. But no couple could be as sexy as us. Especially cause God blessed we much. Cause, us can be led to winning a race, what we got is bigger than space! Get it?

I usually tried to avoid this subject on my blog. It's not that I don't want to talk about it, so much to talk about when speaking on love. So let's talk about love......question is....where do i start?

The definition of love: Wikipedia states that love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. In philosophical context, love is a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection. In religious context, love is not just a virtue, but the basis for all being (God is love), and the foundation for all divine law (Golden Rule). For more click on LOVE that's in all caps lol.

Love is hard to understand but also easy to understand. Hard to understand when we do not know how to respect it. Easy to understand when it's used and disciplined the right way. The question is, what is the right way? Is there a right way to love? Love is perfect, something we can't have a full grasp on. But oh my......when the day comes or if the day comes.......hmmmm?

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Stir of Echoes

Yesterday I walked around for miles. Saw the silhouette of what I thought could be you. Couldn't help but stop my stride and crack a smile. What if all my blurry-eyed hallucinations really were true? Doesn't seem to me that my dreams I see, cause the lack of peace ain't enemy. But I dream to be cause it's within my reach, so why don't I help myself relentlessly, to any other tears that draw my eyes. Be the reason I was it, why, and I am alive. Could you show me dear, something I've not seen? Something infinitely interesting?

Had a long long long weekend! I'm exhausted. Had to babysit the young ones and they are more than a hand full. Now I can rest a little bit. I feel like the Voyage is moving in the right direction. Things are looking brighter in this dark forest of mine. I've been reading and writing more. Formulating and molding the idea into something interesting. I've been really inspired by the music I've been listening to....

I always come back to this I wrote, I don't know why.....I'm kind of glad that I do

My mind was like a time bomb waiting to explode, of every single memory I didn't let go. I put it into words so you can understand me, the way I look out at the world and you see what I see. Know the type of things I have to deal with. I hear people saying that, people saying this; like it's easy to forgive than it is to forget. Still holding on to whatever kind of grudge. Could it be that being hurt gives a sudden rush? Become so addicted it's the closest thing to love. You beg for more, it's nothing less than a drug, keep asking the question, "God why I can't get enough?" I'm so used to the fact my heart stays crushed. I wonder will I find the one that I can really trust, Or will it backfire on me and turn into lust. I got a little faith so I ain't giving up! Wanting to be happy with my life is a must. I wanna fly high to the skies up above. To get away from the things that are just too much. These voices in my head saying listen to us. And do what we say if you want to be loved.......

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Vents on Repeat

Goodbye. To all the loved ones I leave behind. At least they can't see me cry. And I ask, when someone wants to be me. Why? I, love had everything ease my mind. If you could read my mind. My God, I'm scarred I have tattoo tears of joy!

Before I start this blog I decided to switch up the style a little bit on the blog pictures. I will start posting more abstract art other than random photos that go along with the blog.

My car has been out of commission for a few days, but I'm glad to say that it's back on the road again....I was kind of frustrated with it when I was driving because it would jerk ALL the time. I hated it. They say once one problem is solved then its another problem to fix.

I've been really getting into deep thought on my idea. Taking my next move on it slowly but surely. I get inspiration from everything around. From the gossip I hear to prescription I overdose on every night. Like now! Sometimes I overdose on pill for like an hour long. I get so much thoughts in my head when I'm in a state of thought. Sometimes it's depression or egotistical if that makes any sense at all.  There was one song I listened to earlier that had me liked paralyzed in my brain. It was so thought provoking. Some voices can that effect on people which makes music like the most powerful means of communication. There's saying, in the Chinese proverbs that says something like to listen well is as a powerful as talking. Something along that line. I'll have the full proverb next blog......

I close this entry with this song I was talking about that is so.............................



Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Red Light District

I don't wanna die no more. I fear the reaper. Help us Jesus, help to keep us away from all the sadness, and deliver us from the hate that cause the madness. I'm glad it's installed in me, from day one to believe in something, because most of my homies believed in nothing. And paying for it, God bless your souls, I'll be praying for it. Before the stones of diamonds in the sky. Through my bloodshot eyes, I feel the hurt and all the hate. That I trapped inside, because the hurting is hard to ache. There's a smile on my face, but, that's to keep a man from crying. Cause deep down inside, I know I'm dying. I'm born for it, it's gonna take some time to getting used to. And Satan I know that you're listening, but I rebuke you, and refuse to let you capture me to kill my will to survive, the game of life. Win or lose, do or die.....


I would like to start by saying congratulations to Espana for winning the 2010 World Cup for the first time! They deserved it. One day the U.S. will win it!

So today at church was pretty epic. I was doing things I didn't know I had! It was an awesome feeling! So much to gain and so little time. I got a lot on the mind and in my hands. Even though it's too much, I still have a good grip on life. All I can say is....."Byron, you made it! You're making it! You will make it! My new motivation whenever I feel low.

I haven't been working on my idea lately. Like I said, I want this to be PERFECT! So there's been a lot of thought into it. I'm stuck at the red light waiting for it to turn green so I can continue. Maybe I'm meant to be at this red light for a reason......A pause on my idea??


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

The Voyage cont. (Part 2 of 3)

When it's positive people don't wanna hear it, I wanted to speak the truth but I was afraid that you wouldn't feel it. I overcame, and I'm not ashamed of it. High school was okay, but we were talking about nothing. God blessed me with a mind to paint a picture so vivid. Then I turned around and rode bus down. Ignorance is bliss. How could I be so oblivious? But they say the first step to recover is to admit. My mind felt locked up and I was truly missed. Trapped your body not your mind, your dreams will take you where you wish. Home is in your head your sanity is who you should move it with, when you locked behind your nightmares and your physical don't exist.......

So the voyage has led me here so far. Off shore and into the forest. Now the question is.....Where do I take my next step? What's my next move? Maybe the full moon is the direction I should go....

It's only a matter of time before I leave and go back to life I left three months ago. The life that kept me going when everything was attacking me from the inside and out. With all the resting I took, I think I'm ready to face it with a vengeance......July 5, 2010 1:57 AM to be continued........


July 9, 2010 11:22 PM..................

I took some time off for a minute to re collect my thoughts or in this case, been standing in the same place in this forest trying to decide what my next move should be. I think I will keep walking straight ahead. I really been overdosing on my prescription while I been on this small hiatus from the world. While looking and ahead and looking behind. I think I have an understanding of what's going on. Which is why I chose to go straight ahead on this Voyage.........


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::