From the Bellenization Process Files

Someone special brought this blog entry to my attention. I wrote this 8 November 2009.....after going back and reading it again.....I realized so much happened in my life it's a blessing to be where I'm at now...and for our feature presentation, I present to you..........The L Word

The L Word

My mind was like a time bomb waiting to explode,

of every single memory I didn't let go,

I put it into words so you can understand me.

when I look into the world and you see what I see.

Know the type of things I have to deal with.
I hear people saying that, people saying this.

Like it's easy to forgive than to forget.

Still holding on to whatever kind of grudge.

Could it be that being hurt gives a sudden rush?

Become so addicted its the closest thing to love

Beggin for more it's nothing less than drug,

keep askin the question why I can't get enough.

I'm so used to the fact my heart stays crushed

I wonder will I find the one that I can really trust

Or will it backfire on me turn into lust.

I gotta little faith, so I ain't giving up!
Wanting to be happy with my life is a must

I wanna fly high to the skies up above

to get away from the things that are just too much

these voices in my head saying listen to us

and do what we say if you want to be loved

There comes a time in everyone's life or I hope everyone, when it's time to grow up to become a man or woman.  Have a level of maturity and clarification  about what's next after you're tired of not having things go the way you always dreamed of.  

I remember at one point in my life, I just knew that I was a loser at everything I wanted to achieve in...When I had a girlfriend, I lost that...happy family with both parents, I lost that....keeping a home, I lost that...my mind, I lost that....

I felt like, I was important enough in this world to even be alive and maybe if I died then everything would be good....maybe it still would be......

The L word could mean whatever you want it to mean....LESBIAN, LIFE, LIVE, LOVE, LOSER, LAZY, etc....

The L word I'm talking about is LOVE....


LOL....I remember when I was talking to Courtney about Love one day, so much was coming out that I can't believe that what I was saying wasn't coming from my head....I think it went something like Love is perfect and she said that we as people don't know how to use it right or something like that...and I believe I was saying something about how love feels and stuff like that and at that moment I my heart was beating tremendously fast....like why is my heart doing this all of a sudden???

I Love to Love.....Love is perfect

I went home last week and Courtney said the L word...well first she had a surprise for me and I didn't have a single clue to what it may be.....she gave me hints but it wasn't coming together.....and she told She's in my arms forever....I LOVE YOU.....

Without hesitation, I said it back because I felt like I've told her a million times that I love her, but never did....and after I dropped her off at home, all I could think about was....Courtney said she love me!!!!!

I'm still thinking about that night, like WOW!!!! lol, just the thought of love and growing up and the future, and life in general....I feel like, Where am I going to go from here now?? I don't know

Who would've thought that what I wrote before I went to summer school would actually be so significant in my life when I was writing it for people who always lose at love

And I think I may have won!!

I love you so much Courtney that words can't express, my feelings

You take me high that I'm floating above the ceilings

I'm so ready for what God's has in store for us.

Making you and Shayla happy forever in me is a must.

The both of you make me the happiest guy in galaxy!

If you ever need anything just ask me!
Let's be the Love that people said never existed

Flying withouts wings, so baby lets get lifted!

Above the sky, past the stars, and into the land of forever.

The way I see things now, is YOU, SHAYLA, and I together!

Let's Make Love Last...


((FOREVER))


Byron Belle
::BMB+CCG::

Well I hope you enjoyed this presentation from "From the Bellenization Process Files" shouts out to my friend Lacii who is new to the blogging world! I'm here for you whenever you wanna talk! And much much much love to Güli who brought this blog to my attention :) Thank you!

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::