Voyage to Atlantis

Some days I sit, staring out the window; watching this world pass me by. Sometimes I think, there's nothing to live for; I almost break down and cry.  Sometimes I think I'm crazy. I'm crazy, oh so crazy! Why am I hear? Am I just wasting my time? Sometimes I feel like the world's on my shoulders, everyone's leaning on me. Cause sometimes it feels like the world's almost over. But then it comes back to me.

I'm more than tired today. I only got about five hours of sleep, but it's okay. Sometimes I don't even get any sleep. Hanging out with my friends get a lot of things off my mind, especially when it's the deep thinking thoughts in my mind. When I'm with them, I just forget it all. I remember writing something about love and at the beginning of it, I said my mind was like a time bomb waiting to explode, of every single memory I didn't let go...I guess I've put a pause on my time bomb. I haven't exploded yet. I don't even want to think about what will happen when my times up......

It's been a few weeks since I last took my prescription. I don't what happened or where I've been or why I haven't taken it. I guess I forgot to take it. Hopefully I won't forget tonight because I really want to take it tonight. I will need it before I start on my first painting. I never painted before this will be a challenge for me. I got a few pointers on where to start to I think I'm ready :)

I can give my input on what I think about Atlantis and if it exists or not but there's something significant about the story and how I can somewhat relate to it. Click Here if you want to know the story of Atlantis. But when I think of Atlantis and why no one believe it exists or haven't found it yet, i think about the soul. Our soul is like the beautiful city of Atlantis and then it disappeared. Which led to the ups and downs of our lives. Finding our soul is when we find Atlantis. I've been on this Voyage for sometime and I will not stop until I find it...Or have I found it? Hmmmmmmm......................

And the Beat Goes On...

Don't stop for nobody, this time I'll keep my feet on solid ground. Now I understand myself when I'm down. Like the sweet sound of hip music. There will always be something new.

I'm up bright and early this morning just thinking about what my next move is going to be. Which is probably a bad idea because as most of know, things never go as planned. Not because we don't want it to go, it's because of the other things in life that either stops our plan, alter our plans, or push our plans behind. For example, a girl in college has planned to go to one of the best schools in the country, but she gets pregnant and now what does she do? As for me, I did have plans in my life, and yes I have seen the disappointments that came along with it, but somehow I managed to keep going. I realized life only gets worse when things do not go as planned. I'm not sure what I'm doing, I'm trying to just go with the flow of life. Wherever the wind blows, I'll go. I'm saying this now, but I know soon I will be making plans yet again....AND THE BEAT GOES ON..................

It's almost time for me to go into a hiatus. I may not blog for weeks maybe months. This school year will really test my mind and my body. I may become a whole different person by the end of the year. I can't believe I made it this far in my life, I'm about to start my third year in college. Some people can't even make it past the first year of college. I just pray that I make it all the way. Just thinking about gives me the chills because I remember at one point in my life I couldn't picture myself driving a car, I couldn't picture myself graduating high school, and I couldn't picture myself going to a university all by myself. I was the ONLY person from my high school to attend the university I currently attend. So it was like I had to start ALL over again, but I didn't want to start over. I felt like an outcast for almost three months.....still the BEAT GOES ON.......

So I have this friend. She is a pulchritudinous girl, very cool. She sings to me all the time and I love it.....Here's one song I like that she sings........






Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Unanswered Answers

I'm just trying to do the opposite of left. As long as there is the opposite of death.

Currently, I'm writing a story that is so exciting! I can't wait until I finish it! I'm stuck on one part that's pretty frustrating. But like my idea, I'm taking my time with this and won't put it out until I make sure it is close to perfect. I will tell you that the story is called Dreams. What do you think it's about? That I'm leaving unanswered. Which has an answer to it. Maybe when I'm finished with it, whoever looks into it can relate it to your own life. Maybe but then again, everyone's story is different.

I finally cleaned my car out, things are improving with me. For some reason, I just felt so timid but just driving around in the car with my pops, i just relaxed and felt loose. Not sure what will happen from here, not expecting anything. I'm going with the flow the wind. Where ever she blows I go...to a certain extent. I also gotta listen to the other voice that's been around for me since day one.

Now, there are a lot of questions that I don't have the answer to, but maybe it's good that way. Not for me to right now or never. This will be an interesting adventure until I have to go back to school. TRUST ME! I'm not sure what's gonna happen, but I just have a feeling that it will be something epic!!!!

It's time to put my game face on! There's no way I'm losing this!

Simba

Me I'm like a young Simba, I can't wait to be the king. Witness the dream. Right now I'm just a prince, hopped over the fence where the grass way greener. And they keep on saying...Where you going Bee? I can't tell you where I'm going, just know I won't stop. Goodbye to the bottom, Hello to the top.

Hey! Good God what a day! I have to say it feels good to get away! Where ain't nobody stressing over things they gotta pay. Hey tell me what's work without play? Had a pretty good day today. I was very inspired by a lot of people who told me their stories.

I went to church and of course it was father's day, so the sermon was about fatherhood. And one thing that touched my heart the most was when my pastor said if a man step up and take the role of loving a child if he did not birth him or her, then receive the blessing. He has taking the role of a spiritual adoption. It put a smile on my face because, I began to think about all I've been through in a year and where God has led me. I love kids with all of my heart and would do anything for them.

Another thing, one guy story who I heard said that a child can make you change in that instant. It's something about children that will bring the toughest person to their knees. I'm just happy to be where I'm at in my life, I'm not giving up at all. I'll just keep going with flow. My arms spread across the edge I stand upon. Talking to my angel.

Why Simba? Why Simba? Why? Why? Why?

There's a King in me........





Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Memory Lane

I'd like to fly far away from here. Where my mind is fresh and clear. And I'd find the love that I long to see. Where everybody can be what they wanna be. I'd like to greet the sun each morning. And walk amongst the stars at night. I'd like to know the taste of honey, in my life. Well I've shared so many pains. And I've played so many games. But everyone finds the right way. Somehow. Somewhere. Someday.

Just taking a trip back in time. I've been through a lot the more I think about it. But through it all, I question if I have changed or been the same person since birth. Hmmmmm......

Short blog today but I'm more focused on my idea revising it every second....AGAIN....I want this to be just right.....

Will you invite me on your street down memory lane? You all are welcome to take a walk down mine....Now are you willing??


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

The Edge Re-Vamped

Looking out my window, sun shining bright. Birds singing, trying to make things right. I've got good music on my radio. How did your love songs play, from those doors?

I'm not necessarily sure why I'm revisiting this edge again. Although I've been here the whole time. I keep looking down and I wonder what could it be? Sometimes you have to take risks and just go with. You will never know until you make the first move....RIGHT? I heard that with every action there is a reaction. So with every decision I make, consequences will come. I also ask myself, after experience from theses consequences, why do we take the same path and  expect different results?

Hmmm just the random thoughts in my head as I stand on the edge thinking about my idea.....

I've been really vague about this whole idea....understand that this idea is probably one of the closest things to my heart and I will take my time with this. I won't reveal it until I feel that it is right. Almost perfect. Now with that in mind. Just be patient and I promise you, it will be worth the wait. This is my first time working on something this big.

I'm so deep in thought right now, it feels incredible. All is tranquil with me. As I stand on this edge with one foot out and my arms open.


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

The Edge

So I look at this room. I'm hooked to this tune. Every night the same melody, Hell sounded so heavenly. But jail was ahead of me, the speeding life keep getting me. Reading's what I should have done, because my imagination would run. I was impatient to get out and become, apart of the noise out there.

I gotta be cool, I got to keep my peace of mind. I follow the rules and it's about time you follow mine. Got so much to gain and so little time. I finally watched The Last Dragon last night. It's been awhile since I last seen it, but it still is an instant classic.

I began drawing in my sketchbook again, something different this time. I think towards the end of my sketch book, I will draw manga or anime...I'm not sure what I will do. I'm just going with the flow of things.

Not sure when I'll be back, but I have to vent for a few days. I've been meaning to write back but with the new blog thing, I had to work on that for few days.

I'm gonna work on my drawing and then the idea..........about that idea..............


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

The Lavalamp

What's up with all these nightmares, this long rewinding road, that leads me to the same place I started from; right before I left home. (Look me in my eye!) I thought you was a shrink? Diagnosed my symptoms, I give you time to think. OK your time is up, now analyze my life. Please remove your glasses, and look me in the eyes. You seemed to be confused, I raised up off his sofa. I put back on my shoes, because this sessions over. I headed for the door, he stopped me in my tracks. He said he had an answer, he told me to come back. He spoke the book of Matthew, then spoke spoke the book of Luke. But he stopped at Revelations, when he just spoke the truth. And told me all my answers, I would find in his book. If I just stopped and looked, if I just stopped and looked. He told me to seek in he who seeks he shall find. Then he put back on his glasses, and he looked me in my eyes.......

Each and every day I learn something, even if I sleep all day and stay awake all night. A friend of mine told me I should live in Asia because of my backwards sleep patterns. Hmmm interesting needless to say. I wonder.....I will give it try starting soon...When I was in school, I was awake from 8:00 in the morning until 3:00 in the morning. Working NON-STOP!!!! Oh the joy of school.....

Growing up is a slow process for some and fast process for others. I think it's slow for me, like a Lavalamp....When you get a Lavalamp, you have to plug it up to turn it on...and the wax heats up....I'm at the point where the wax is losing its solid form to becoming liquid. I've been liquid before, but that was while I was in school. But after school, I turned my lamp off and returned back to my state. But I had to turn it back on and get back on track.

This whole summer for me is progress. Learning new things and refining my old ways to become much better than before.  I'm still thinking about the idea that is in process....who knows when it will be finish.....

The idea may never be finished.....How can I finish something that doesn't have an answer?

Or does it????


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Don't Let Me Fall

If I could fall, into the sky. Do you think time, would pass us by? Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you....tonight.


It looks like I'm getting back on track with things. I wasn't sure about last night because I went to sleep pretty late.  Today was pretty good. I actually did something other than sleep.

Since I didn't take my prescription the other night, I decided to take it tonight. And I pretty much overdosed. I fell asleep in my car for about 3 hours with the sounds of music playing in my head. Only if it was cooler outside. Some days I just want to sit on my car listening to the music that tranquilizes the soul and mind. That's what I prescribe myself to take each night. When you have so much going in your life. I have a lot going on but yet I stand still. I wish divine intervention would kick in pretty soon. Lol. Somehow I don't worry as much about the things I need to get done. I know it will happen.

Now about that idea.......


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

My Immortality

Evangelists making a living on the videos of ribs of the little kids. Stereotyping the image of the images. And this is what the image is...

I'm making progress. Apparently, I didn't clean my room first. I made improvement on my sleep pattern. I fell asleep pretty early and woke up really early. I felt much better afterwards. :) Now I'm on my way to get back on track like I was two months ago. I'm loving it! I'm in the zone!

hmmm....now what should I do. My room is clean. I have an idea in mind of what I want to do. I want to keep this very discreet. Don't ask what it is because I will not say. I think I'll start working this idea soon.

I have a lot of things on my mind. I just take each situation one thought at a time.....hmmmmmm time....


P.S. comments are greatly appreciated

Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::

Prescription

Simply out of this world by choice. The world's too much for the souls to enjoy.


Hmmmm where should I start...I have to get back on track ASAP. my days are backwards....I sleep during the day and stay awake during the night...I want to wake up early and get some things done but it never happens because I'm sleep until someone calls me.

I decided that right before I walk into the house every night I wan't to just sit in my car and listen to my music play. It helps me clear all the thoughts in my head and I feel so free. I feel free from all the rush hour moments in the day. It's the only time I feel like I really have for myself. I'm sure I can make time for myself but I don't want to have the feeling of I need to get this done by this time. I just want that time to be free of thoughts.

Now, time is winding down for the summer to end and school to start back! Time REALLY does fly. It seems as if I just got out for the summer 2 weeks ago!!!! Sadly, 2 weeks ago was my birthday.....it's crazy

Now, I'm at a point where I will take every thing one situation at a time until I get back to where I was. I know I can do it! First thing on the agenda: Clean my room

Second objective:...........


P.S. What's your prescription? Comments are greatly appreciated =)


Love, Live, Life

:::Byron Belle:::