It seems like the signs are getting clearer, the time is getting nearer. I finally can hear ya, when you speak, as a whisper, through the wind. I want you to do it again, I'm your true blue friend, The music is when, I get to prove to you how true it begins. Where am I? Somewhere asking, "Where are you?" "Does your man care for you?" That's what I'm here to do. Spend a lifetime telling you how sweet you are. Through sex and questions, see how deep you are. I believe you are, I know you wouldn't say what you say, everyday if your word were just play. But you don't say much, it's all vibes. And it only looks real, when the crystal ball shines. Spending all time of the night in a day dream. Thoughts of you make me trip across time.
Another day is gone, and the same things always happen. Go to class, eat lunch, and go home. My life has been a simple schedule for the past two years now. Well that's how long I've been single, but I've been having an affair with my ex, I don't think her boyfriend knows. I feel kinda bad that I'm having sex with another man's girl, I would hate to be in his shoes....Well I've felt like that plenty of times before. You know right after the break-up. Your girl decides that she's ready "fuck" again, but it's not you. It still feels like a low blow, because the feelings you had for her are still strong. But now that I've moved on with my life, sex is sex to me now. But like I was saying, my life has been a complete schedule for the past two years.
On the way to my apartment, I decided that I would try something different. It's a three day weekend, mostly everyone is going home and I just want to go through my old music collection. So I arrived to apartment, and quickly I turn on the radio and I place my headphones over my head. The first song that comes on is, "Come Close" by Common. All of sudden, I'm laying on the floor zoned out, just thinking of the good relationships, the bad relationships, and the relationships that had potential of being something. It's amazing what music can do to you mentally. I feel like God and music made me the person I am today. My family paid a big role, but God and music, was the IT factor for me.
I remember being a kid, listening to all the love songs, I just knew that I had the answer to what love is and what I can do for my future girlfriend. Sometimes, the good love songs talked about the potential of perfect love. For example, I remember Tyrese-Sweet Lady song asking the girl would you be mine. The girl in the song sounded perfect, she was the one. I never knew, at my age, that women had flaws just like men. As far as women being hurt by men. I found out men gets hurt as well. But Love songs, just have something special in them that doesn't show the process of growing in relationships. Maybe they do, I don't know. I was more focused on, how to love a woman and I can honestly say, that everything I know and have shown, came from the Love songs I grew up on.
Some Love Songs, just send chills down your spine because it feels so real. Just imagine your life being a musical and one song comes on while you are with the woman or man of your dreams. You will definitely over look all the lies, arguments, and negatives in the relationship. You would hope that a relationship would be perfect. Sometimes when I picture myself with the girl of my dreams, wherever/whoever you are, I just know that I will have a special gut feeling in my stomach. The kind of feeling you have when you feel like something is wrong, but that would be time when that gut feeling is for the best. That's how I feel about true love.
I picture myself before marriage, having this special friendship/relationship with the woman of my dreams that every time I am with her, nothing in the world matters but our moment. Enjoying life without the fast lanes in our view. Maybe I've been watching too many love stories. But then again, if we never had these stories, how are we able to express love? Do they express love the right should be the question to ask?
As I'm lying here, headphones blasting
I go into a zone, that is all about passion
In this zone, it teaches me, shows me what love's potential may be
I ask my ancestors (music), to come and please save me
I know how to love now, but can someone appreciate what I have to give?
Sometimes I feel like my love is dead, and I ask and ask, Can I live?
No matter how far I go, see no matter how long it takes
No one or nothing can change, forever whoever, wherever you are. Here I stand.
If these Love songs are right about love, then how can I go wrong.
well I've been wrong, since day one. Because yet and still, I haven't found that ONE
Maybe I'm too young to even consider settling down.
I know I'm not the only one who thinks their time is now.
In each relationship, we all think he or she is it.
We love them so much, we love to put up with the bullshit.
It's true, love will make you do some crazy crazy things
Love will make you have some crazy dreams.
Love is what love does, so that means love is everything
Now as I doze off fast asleep, the last love song plays......
Love, Live, Life
:::Byron Belle:::
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