Do you remember, when we fell in love? We were young and Innocent then. Do you remember, how it all began? It just seemed like Heaven, so why did it end? Do you remember, back in the fall? We'd be together, all day long. Do you remember, us holding hands, in Each other's eyes? We'd stare (tell me). Do you remember the time, when we fell in love? Do you remember the time, when we first met? Do you remember the time, when we fell in love? Do you remember the time?
Where do I start with this? My mind is like a time bomb waiting to explode. Time to release some things I never let go. I feel like I need to observe some things in my past so I can understand what it is I'm understanding....yet again. These stories I have in my crate are my stories of my past relationships.....I only want to observe the ones that were most effective to me. This will take awhile, as I talk about the joys, the pains, the sunshine, and the rain. via Frankie Beverly and Maze. So before I depart on my journey to the past, I need to prepare. I think I'll pack light this time around, and wherever I end up, I'll camp there and start fresh for a need day. I feel like Forrest Gump when he just ran and ran and ran and ran, because he just felt like running. I don't think I can keep running so, I'm going to walk. No hitchhiking needed this time around, but my ipod is a must. It seems like every girl, I've dated, there was a song that reminded me of them, so this will be helpful in my journey. it's amazing how the same things that can help you can also hurt you..or even kill.....
As I stare out at the world, nothing is moving....it's quiet...the weather's perfect. Almost too good to be true. Not ready to press play, I just wanna walk and feel again.....have that feeling of sanity again in my mind. I may seem calm to others but in my head, I am on the verge of losing it. Who know's what may happen if I lose it? I just want to make sure that when I come back or if I ever come back, I'm here with right mind state I need to be in for my soul.
It's funny that I chose to wait before I listened to my ipod, because my first girl......there isn't a special song that reminded me of her....and it's not a bad thing because she was definitely someone special in my life.
My very first girlfriend, I can't believe that she remembers us...because it happened way back in daycare. The puppy love. When I moved away, I never thought that we would ever meet again. I hit middle school, and I see her again, walking away in the distance. All of the memories I remember of her. I thought what if we were together again? Would it be like it was back in the day? lol. But after seeing her again, i didn't see her for another few years. The next time we meet, it would be at a ball. My best friend wanted me to be her date. Then I see her........I'm speechless, don't know what to do...should I go speak to her? Does she even remember me? All of the thoughts that were running in my head that night? Then I came up with the perfect idea.....I'll look for her on Facebook, and talk to her from there! So I find her, and I write her and the first thing I said, you probably don't remember me.....and her reply was....actually I do remember you....Now we're friends, we talk very little....maybe because we are doing our own things in life at the moment, it's difficult to re-light any flames at the moment...because we never actually did break up, I just left.......
The trip down memory lane, from the joys to pains
to the songs that reminded me of you and you and you
how else can I remember the things you do?
You are definitely someone special to me
because you made me who I am
whenever your song came on, I always pictured us together at a specific moment in time
the moment that I wanted to last forever, only if we stayed together
then my dreams would come true. Now that you're gone.
I think of who? a new you. Someone who is or could be better than the last you
or are you all the same? Maybe we're all playing the game, or ya'll are playing without me
so you begin to we. what we have, had, could have, or could have had.
I'm not saying I'm mad, just sad that we never got to a point in our life that could last.
I can only learn from you and what you done to me. I will never change through all the hurt and tears
I will grow in Love each and every year. Just wait and you will see, that what I told you how I felt
will soon come true. because after I've been through all of the yous...my last you will be who?
It will be you. Whoever, wherever you are. Better than ever, but never too far.......
Love, Live, Life
:::Byron Belle:::
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