Out on your own. Cold and alone again.Can this be what you really wanted? Blame it on me. Set your guilt free. Nothing can hold you back now. Now that you're gone, I feel like myself again. Grieving the things I can't repair and willing...To let you blame me. And set your guilt free. I don't want to hold you back now love. I can't change who I am. Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me and in this short life, there's no time waste on giving up my love wasn't enough....
I ran out of Incense Sticks day before yesterday and now my feel hasn't been the same.......I just feel like something is missing now. I'm okay just ventilating on the sounds that surround my mind, my body, and my spirit....
This may be the first time I've had this moment, but when I was writing the beginning of the blog, I was looking at it from a whole different point of view that it was meant to be looked at....For instance, the beginning of my blog is somewhat a love story...but read it again and it felt like losing a spirit...evil? or good?
School begins in less than a week for me. At the beginning of the summer, I was far from ready. I was completely drained physically and mentally for the majority of the summer. I guess that's the reason why I didn't go out looking for a job or put in the effort to do it. The questions still comes to me.....Am I ready for school to start? I really have no idea....I guess I won't know until the day comes...
Sometimes I want to confront the thoughts in my mind or at least have some control over them. Sometimes I want to understand my thoughts more. Like they have a personality on its own and they express themselves through me.The reason I say thought(s) plural is because more than one thing is in my head. Like My mind is a bowl of alphabet soup and none of the letters are same....if that makes any sense....I guess I'm trying to make a word out of these letters....no I'm not crazy or going crazy...I have pretty good sense to know what I'm saying and how I say it and when I say it....That's one thing I dislike in this world....People are always being judge FIRST by their looks, then by the people the are friends or associates with, then by what they say, and lastly their beliefs....
Why do we do the things we do when we don't want the same things done to us? Can someone prove to me that they are not the same? I figured that with my next relationship, I want someone who I can relate to mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically........
Now for some mood music.......
I decided to post the link to the lyrics to each song I post...it's easier to understand sometime...so click HERE!!!
Love, Live, Life
:::Byron Belle:::
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